BeaR-BeAr

Life is DAMN MISERABLE!! I’m just trying to be myself, if you can’t take it then just back off!! None of your monkey business!!! Everything around me is changing since the beginning, just that I don’t dare to accept it. Why? ‘Cause I can’t believe people in this world would really change so suddenly. It’s really pathetic to know this fact, but still I need to bear it.

I’m really disappointed by all the things evolving around me. It’s likes I’m the only dunno-what-is-happening gal, and will always be the blur-Queen. No matter where I go, I’ll tend to be left out. Why? Is it because I’m so called the "small-kid"??Or what?? Tell me!!! I’m fed up with this kind of stupid-useless-hopeless lifestyle. It doesn’t mean anything at all, it just makes life harder and tougher for everyone.

I don’t know what happened, and I don’t even wanna know about it if you all are not planning to tell me!!! What for I bother if I’m not welcomed to know???? ~~I don’t what happened but it seems like we all are drifting apart. It’s not the same anymore like lastime. Everything’s turning weirder and weirder. Different mentality, different thinking,different aim…etc. Everyone seems to have their own frustration and problems, to make things worst, we don’t talk that much anymore. Although there are some

FRIENDS

It seems to be an Easy and Nice word, but it’s not like everyday you can meet up with this true and devoted kind of people. People tend to take advantage of this particular word and make up those phrases like "FRIENDS FOREVER" and etc. Well, I don’t have a problem with people saying that and I do say it myself sometimes, but people, think—would this happen between you and your FRIENDS??? I emphasize on the "S" word. Personally, I do think it’s possible if both parties make an effort, but how long would it last? You can never know what will happen in the near future nor you can know what will be happening in the next minute when you meet up your friend. Please say those phrases when you mean it, don’t just say it for fun because people might get hurt because of a simple-silly mistake you make. Cherish the friends around you, trust me…
**No one’s perfect, so I don’t expect too much, I’m just pouring out how I feel now…**

~~my apologies to those around whom I’ve hurt all along without noticing, I’m really sorry for what I’ve done, but I’ll cherish the moments we had together once upon a time.Sorry again…
~~To my BEST FRIENDS, I love you all very much. Although we don’t meet up often but we still manage to keep in touch. Thanx a lot for always being there for me, guiding me throughout my journey. I missed you all very much, and I do…really I do cherish those special moments we had together…(Now, I wish that we are Friends Forever…)
~~Friends of mine, despite the years or months or days or hours or minutes or seconds I’ve known you, I’ll always try to be at my best to be your friend!!

In this point of life, I think there’s nothing harder than MAKING DECISION. There are a lot of matters that we to deal with, and surely it’s tough—never easy!! Sometimes I wonder am I suffering from some sort of disorder or whatsoever because MY LIFE IS IN A MESS!!! Thinking too much lately…SUFFERING. I just hope I can help others in whatever they are facing and on the mean time also solve my own problems.
There are a lot of times where I feel like letting go everything, unfortunately(or should I say fortunately) I failed to do so ’cause I don’t that’s the way of solving a problem. Running away from a problem is like running away from your own shadow, which doesn’t make any sense.

IT’S IMPOSSIBLE TO PLEASE EVERYONE, SO PLEASE YOURSELF AND BE WHO YOU ARE